My name is Marcy Robertson and I am the owner of MG Productions 4 Peace. I formed this company as a way to express love, peace and unity through multimedia endeavors and to assist others who wish to do the same.
I am the mother of a most wonderful son who is married and has blessed me with a loving daughter-in-law and two beautiful grand babies. I am the daughter of two departed parents who devoted themselves to the entire family doing their best to show us how to love each other and the world. I am also a sister to five siblings who are currently teaching me, in various ways, more about how to love and respect myself than I could have ever imagined.
In 2010 I retired from a career I had in law enforcement where I worked for the State of California at a maximum security facility for the criminally insane for 20 years. Before that I bounced around experiencing life trying to play by the rules but for whatever reason, I found myself questioning the rules and many times unwilling to follow them. Sometimes it empowered me but other times there were those who tried to make me feel guilty, ashamed or broken. This in turn created hidden and repressed resentment and anger within me. After several episodes of explosive anger and experiencing on again off again depression I finally realized that something wasn’t right. I had to make a change and that change was me.
Just before I retired I began thinking a great deal about life. A couple of questions I began to ponder were, “Was I born just to go to school, get a job, retire and die?” and “Why do I feel anxious, sad and afraid to express myself?” This searching for life’s meaning took me on a long journey that funny enough, has led me right back to myself.
I’ve come to realize that within me lives a great source, a power, an energy, a light full of peace, love and wisdom. A part of me that know’s it’s true nature and is not deceived by the illusions of the material world. I have discovered that this specific source was sleeping within me, patiently waiting to be aroused. Waiting for my human self to awaken to the fact that I am not separate from this source and I never was as it is a part of me, just like my arm, leg or other body part is. But I had to learn this for myself, on my own and in my own time. It reminds me of Dorothy from The Wizard Of Oz, toward the end of the movie when Glinda the Good Witch Of The North reveals to Dorothy all she had to do was click her heels together three times and she could go home.
Dorothy: Oh, will you help me? Can you help me?
Glinda: You don’t need to be helped any longer. You’ve always had the power to go back to Kansas.
Dorothy: I have?
Scarecrow: Then why didn’t you tell her before?
Glinda: She wouldn’t have believed me. She had to learn it for herself.
Scarecrow: What have you learned, Dorothy?
Dorothy: Well, I—I think that it, that it wasn’t enough just to want to see Uncle Henry and Auntie Em — and it’s that — if I ever go looking for my heart’s desire again, I won’t look any further than my own backyard. Because if it isn’t there, I never really lost it to begin with! Is that right?
Glinda: That’s all it is!
Scarecrow: But that’s so easy! I should’ve thought of it for you –
Tin Man: I should have felt it in my heart –
Glinda: No, she had to find it out for herself. Now those magic slippers will take you home in two seconds!
Dorothy: Oh! Toto too?
Glinda: Toto too.
Glinda: Whenever you wish.
Glinda: Then close your eyes and tap your heels together three times. And think to yourself, ‘There’s no place like home’.
When I become still and quite my mind, I am able to uncover hidden patterns of destructive behavior, illusions or false constructs that have been re-enforced by society, religion, school or our parents etc. over and over again since childhood. While in this quite and meditative state I become aware of the things that are causing most of my pain, suffering, anxiousness, sadness and fear. Once the awareness is present I am able to acknowledge it and express it. Then just like magic, it releases from my body and what’s left in it’s place is a real physical sensation of lightness and peace, a feeling of freedom.
Besides meditation my daily experiences and how I react to them also give me clues, just like a detective who looks for clues when working a case. Once I learned how to interpret my reactions to these experiences it allowed me to become aware of how I “really” felt about myself, about others and about life. It’s like a reality show being played out right in front of me. Paying close attention to what shows up in my daily experience and how I react to that has become a valuable awareness tool, one that I use everyday as it consistently mirrors back to me the truth of what was once hidden.
Our true essence is love and once this is remembered and embodied, it will be the only expression we will be willing to emit. It won’t occur to us to express ourselves in any other way because what we embody, we express. I can now better express my true nature much more of the time these days and by paying close attention to what is showing up in my world I can simultaneously illuminate and release old constructs that do not support my true nature. I am ever so grateful to have gained this wisdom at least on some level and continue on with the discovery of the real me.
So here we are, at this spot together. Why are you here? I welcome you to join me as we explore completely new ways to live, love and prosper, so come on, jump in!
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Marcy Robertson – Producer and Editor – MG Productions 4 Peace